When you become a mother you enter what almost feels like a parallel universe. So much of what you once knew can feel so different. Your body changes, your relationships can change, even your mind changes. There are days where it is easy to feel like you are going crazy or that you just do not feel like yourself anymore. I often refer to the first couple years of motherhood as a complete haze. Lack of sleep, sacrificing your whole self – mind and body, and the entire disruption that motherhood brings to what you once recognized life to be… that is the haze.

There is a large part of your life that is all laid to rest when motherhood takes over. Some of your dreams, your hobbies, your career, your body, and even some relationships cease to exist. Everything truly changes to a degree when you become a parent. There are days where you feel like the amount of sacrifice it requires is overwhelming. Yet all of these things that our laid to rest in our lives do not mean that they will completely die off. Timing is everything. Having a family, requires us to put some things on the back burner for a time. In a society that is completely the opposite of patient and that teaches that you should be all things and have all things, we forget that it is okay for some things to rest at certain times in our life. In fact, some of our dreams and aspirations need to rest for a while so they can come out more refined in the aftermath.

I have to remind myself often that what I have put on hold in my life in order to give to my family will have its time. When that time comes, oh the magnitude of appreciation that I will have cultivated in bringing forth all that has been percolating in my heart and mind. There are great things ahead for us all when we exercise patience. Gods timing is perfect timing for all I wish to do and accomplish. For now, God had given me the greatest gift of a family that needs my attention and the sacrifices I have made will not go unaccounted for.

When you have a bad day in the trenches of motherhood, remember that all that you have laid to rest to raise your babies is for a time. We may not know how it will all come to fruition, but it will all work out. Who knows, maybe God will work out your dreams to be fulfilled through your children after all you invested and sacrificed for them. Wouldn’t that be the greatest joy of all!

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